stay the same

I just downloaded this really old song from Joey McIntyre, it’s just a pretty random song that came into my mind, because I was talking to June about people changing… and I was wondering if my love with Ed will ever change.

Anyway, lyrics are here. The song is really nice, if you want it, message me. Old songs are always super meaningful with their lyrics. =x

Baby, this song is for you. I love you, cliche as it sounds, but it is forever.

Stay The Same – Joey McIntyre

Don’t you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don’t you ever say
You don’t like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You’re better off by far
And I hope you always
Stay the same
‘Cause there’s nothing
About you I would change
I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted it to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don’t be afraid
If you’ve got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way
Don’t you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don’t you ever say
You don’t like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You’re better off by far
And I hope you always
Stay the same
‘Cause there’s nothing
About you I would change
Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
You’ll make it through

You were meant to be
Love yourself
And I hope you always
Stay the same
‘Cause there’s nothing
About you I would change
No, there’s nothing
About you I would change
Don’t change

brunei…and genting.

Hey all…

Just sent my Hubby off at Changi Airport. He’s going to Brunei for the Jungle Orientation Training (JOT) for approximately 10 days. Well, I hope this 10 days will fly pass really quickly, it should, with work, tests, and the upcoming Genting trip (hip hip HURRAY)

Haha, Baby should be on the flight now since he stopped messaging me altogether. I guess he’s kinda excited cos he hasn’t been out of the country for quite some years already. =x I gave him homework to do on the flight and that is to ogle at the SIA girls. I’m so nice right?

Actually he’s my scout to gather information so that I can prepare myself more for future cabin crew interviews. =x

Anyway, I CAN’T WAIT FOR THE GENTING TRIP! In total, we have Jayne, Joanna, Bel, Freesia, Lily and me! I’ll be bunking in with Lily, hehehehe, and I think the 6 of us are gonna have hell of fun at the amusement park, casino (if I can get in, still scheming to get in), and food! =D I already koped Baby’s Ipod touch to entertain me with manhjong on my way to Genting! Gosh, it’ll be so fucking fun man… my first time out with friends ONLY! Wee!

I’ll be back on a Thursday evening. By then Hubby will be back too. Yay!!

 

 

I’m waiting to hear from you darling… call me when you touch down okay? Love ya soo much. Muacks! Have a safe trip! =D

Happy 20th Birthday June!

Before the clock hits 12, let me post this.

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNE DARLING!!!

Stay pretty, young, cute, and inquisitive like always! =D May God bless you with a smooth journey in university, and an ever lasting relationship with your Mr. Goh! =D

PS: So sorry about the cock up… I’m not gonna give excuses for myself other than it slipping past my mind. =( Don’t give me demerit points okay. =((

Love ya girlfriend! See ya soon! =D

Hubby’s 21st Birthday =) 150609

Hello!!

It’s been a while since I written in here. =D Well, that’s because I’ve been busy celebrating Hubby’s birthday for him over the weekend!

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY BABY! MUACKS!!!

I made for him this cranes-thingy, with 21 cranes for each colour… I don’t know if Baby will find that useful or not (probably not), but that’s just like a form of my prayers for him. Made a raspberry cheesecake too, well, I guess it didn’t taste that bad. =x Ooo, we shared the cost of getting a wii too! =D

 I still feel kinda guilty, like I didn’t do much for his birthday, esp when it’s his 21st. Baby, do forgive me if it’s a flop okay… =( I suck at planning birthdays. I love you so much baby… Muacks. =D

Pictures!

Da cake~ Just in case you’re wondering why it looks like this, this is the non-baked cheesecake. =D I’ll learn to make the baked cheesecake soon. Hehe.

He looks so adorable here. <3

Wee~ Hunk and Beauty (okay I know a lot of people puking now….)

With his family. =)

for the week ending Jun 12 2009

Does the title sound familiar?

For those who took accounting before, this would probably sound really close to the heart for you. P&L, Balance Sheet, Income Statement, Cash flow analysis, all these makes use of this heading:  for the month/year ended, or the as at XXX.

Right… for the week ending, well because I realized that I haven’t been blogging, so let me just write about my week.

Basically this week flew past really quickly, it’s already 40 minutes to Friday. Significant events in the week were:

1. Meeting up June, Melvin and Wayne for MJ at Junie’s home

2. Working (Wednesday was a total slam)

3. Missing school yesterday =x

Well, that’s about it. I met Han Ming at PB on Wednesday, he came down with his friend. Well, I’m surprised he still remember me… hmmm. We didn’t get to catch up much, because it was soooo busy (like a Friday night), and we had some difficult people here and there. Plus, he was engrossed in his conversation with his Indian mate, so, I guess it’s till we meet again then!

Had some interesting encounters with 3 French customers towards the end of my shift. I guess I made them quite happy and laughing away at my terrible French (stupid me told them that I studied French before, got tested by them and was of course, stumped), that they asked me out for dinner. Well, not really me to go out with customers after work, although there was just that once, but nah.

MJ with June and gang was really fun! It was like everyone’s first time playing with each other, so it was really hilarious. June, you know what you did lah… hahaha! We were like poking fun at the guys for being late and us having to set up the table and  MJ all by ourselves (actually I didn’t help much =x) and cursing them to lose because of that. In the end, Wayne won like how many rounds of man tai? And I am the one that gave him the winning tile! Suay right? I was actually winning, but because of that, haiiii. Melvin lost the most, about 37, and I lost 17.

I was kidding with them, saying that I don’t have money to take train home, yada yada, and I put 20 bucks on the table and went to the toilet. When I came back, Junie gave me the change and I wanted to give it to Wayne, and he was like “No need lah no need! I don’t have loose change to give you, never mind 10 enough…” Melvin said that Wayne is taking pity on me so he just take 10. -.-”"”"”"”

Anyway, that afternoon was filled with so much laughter. More of such sessions please! And Junie, we’re supposed to go makan and shopping together soon. =D

Lassstly, Baby’s finally back from field camp, AGAIN. He got rashes again, tomorrow he’s gonna see the MO. Hope it’s nothing serious… =(((( And I’ll be seeing Hubby tomorrrrroooww after work! Hip hip hooray!

 

On a random last note, I miss eating the chicken drumlets at June’s house. OK, gonna bug her for the brand now and wait for Baby’s call. Have a good weekend everyone! =D

Air France Flight 447

I don’t know what to say about this. Just in case you don’t know what this is about, click here.

I am indeed very saddened by this incident. There has been many questioning by the public regarding the safety of the Airbuses, which are very, very dependent on auto-piloting systems. Others questioned the judgment of the pilots. How can a flight crew of 3, which so much experience combined, possibly decide to fly into a thunderstorm with violent turbulence and lightning when they can choose to go round it or land somewhere first? Weren’t they able to detect the impending storm ahead of them? Or was it just plain stupidity and over-confidence that they’ll be able to ride through the storm?

Well, no matter how much we question, the fact still stands. Lives were lost and families were parted. This is the worst air catastrophe Air France has face in its history. My heart goes out to the victims and their families… I hate to think this way, but I doubt there are any survivors. Like what a high ranking official of Air France said, the jet would have ran out of fuel by now. It had to land somewhere… and that place would most probably be somewhere in the Atlantic Ocean.

Father, please bless the souls of the poor victims of this crash… and give their families and friends the strength to go through this time of loss. Please give the investigation crew the chance to trace what actually happened, and let investigation works be eased. I pray to You for a chance that the black box can be recovered, so that the families of the victims can seek closure in their lives and move on…

Amen.

Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.

‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
‘Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me,
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

The world shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun refuse to shine;
But God, who called me here below,
Shall be forever mine.

When we’ve been there ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun,
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we’d first begun.

why?

I went for an interview with Capella Singapore today.

Well, the interviewer didn’t seem to like me. When I was talking, he was looking away on many occasions. I seriously wonder what does that mean?

There was this question he asked me “Did you learn anything new recently?”

Without thinking indepth into the question, I replied ‘not really’ because I was thinking of skills. But I forgot that it can be about anything under the sun. Sigh. I think I looked like an idiot when I said no.

The only thing that I can hope for now is that he’ll give me a chance based on my grooming standards. A lot of people told me that I should try for airlines instead, especially SIA, because I have the look of a Singapore Girl.

So what? Do they want me? I don’t know.

I went to church with baby yesterday… It felt good to be back at church with baby and Him once again. I felt spiritually closer to God. However, I wished that I knew how to be closer to Him. I want to stop questioning His intentions, but I don’t know how to. I think that I am a very selfish person, everything in my life is about me, me and more mes. Why am I like that? Why am I questioning Him because of my incompetencies? Or there really is a plan that He has for me?

I feel really upset to be flopping my major interviews one by one. I seriously don’t think I’ll be getting the call from Capella, since I responded so bimbolically during the interview. I really wonder, what’s wrong with me? How come I don’t seem to get the jobs that I want? Am I trying too hard? Or is this His indication to me that this is not the kind of job for me? I really want it, I know I will work hard for it. Why?

You know, it’s really upsetting that everyone praises me, saying I’m smart and witty and everything, but I just keep failing. Academically, I always succeed without much hiccups, teachers and friends think that I have a bright future, etc etc. But why is it when it comes to seeking the job which I love, it’s always so difficult? Lord, is this Your test to me on my dedication to a single career? I’ve always thought that You are trying to put me through a series of tests because I am fickle minded as a child; probably You just want me to be very sure of my own career decision, hence letting me fail time and again. But when is it going to stop? I don’t know if I’m tired of failing. I do not mind trying again and again, but my confidence is really taking an Olympic dive. I can’t help but question You again, when will this test be over?

I don’t wanna drift further away from Him because of all these issues. I wished there was someone out there to listen to me, and help me strengthen my faith for the Lord.

On a random last note, I don’t know why but I’ve been having a lot of dreams recently. And these dreams are on the whole pretty nasty dreams, I often see myself crying out, but it’s silent. I scream so hard, so that someone can hear my cry, but yet, no one hears me. Is this a reflection of my life? Am I feeling hopeless in my subconciousness? I don’t know.

Lord, hear my cry. Help me.